
I just dropped Littlest off for his first day of school today. He was excited....then nervous....and then teary and sad and scared. Which caused me to be excited (3 hours to myself!)...then nervous (oh poor sweetheart, he's feeling a little nervous about the new school)...and then teary and sad and scared (yes, I fought tears, was sad I had to leave him, and scared he would have an awful day). Ok, truth be told I cried the whole way home. There, I said it.
He didn't do this last year, his first year of school. Last year I worried he wouldn't want to stay by himself the first day of school but he got out of the car and walked right in without a backward glance. He was crying when I picked him up....
crying because he didn't want to leave! This year? He tried the entire way to school to talk me into staying with him, told me his teachers would need to leave so I needed to be there to take care of him.
I promised him the whole way to school that he was going to have a great time, meet lots of new friends, play on the playground, and just have a great day!
I promised him lunch anywhere he wanted to go when I picked him up, to celebrate!
I promised him new Star Wars shoes like his brother's!
He was brave, he stayed and didn't cling to me, but he had a red face and tears streaming down his little face and it was next to impossible for me to tell myself I
HAD to leave and
NO I shouldn't just take him back home with me and snuggle all day. I think he would have gone for it if I had offered. It
almost would have been worth it (he's a really good snuggler).
But he LOVES school. He loves learning new stuff and playing with his friends. He loves doing crafts, and writing his letters, and oh just everything about school. So I know that given time he'll settle in and be just fine.
In the meantime though I'm going to sit here sipping my Coke Zero, pretending to read Gone with the Wind (only 300 pages left!) but really anxiously awaiting pick up time so that I can
KNOW he had a good day after all.....and then take him to lunch, and to get his Star Wars shoes. And then maybe I'll even get a snuggle in...maybe...